Just a Thought

Today as I walked across campus on my way to my car I realized something: I like to be alone.  I've always known it, and I do just fine on my own, I've learned how to be independent and I'm proud of it.   Sometimes though, I think I really do like my alone time a little too much.  People are difficult and messy and sticky and never quite understands things in the same way you do.  I love people, I really do.  I love watching people, I love hearing other people's opinions, I like knowing the differences and getting new perspectives.  I wouldn't trade people for the world.  But sometimes you  just need a moment to not be perfect.  To fall apart, to let things just be, to not worry about who sees or the proper way to act.  People are work.  And some days its just not worth the effort.  So tonight, I'll sit and fold my laundy

Boutique Time!!

I know it's not Christmas yet, heck it's not even Halloween, but guess what?!  It's an ever growing trend to shop for Christmas before its actually here!!  Surprise, surprise right?  I'm the kind of person that thinks about what to get people all year long, but then doesn't actually do shopping until December....probably not the best idea.  SOOO, this will help all of you trying to get a jump on your Christmas shopping!

I've participated in this boutique for the last 3 years and I have so much fun every time!  It's going on this weekend, starting tomorrow (which is of course Thursday, and not quite the weekend) in Draper.  There are a lot of different items for sale, some Christmas-y some not, but all exciting!  Come check it out!

if you can't make it to the boutique check out my shop topsy.bigcartel.com  lots of stuff on there already and lots of new things coming for the holidays!

Fridays in the Fall

Nothing makes it feel more like fall than football games!  It really is the best part of going back to school and the changing of the seasons.  I went on a date last night to my hometown high school's homecoming game and it was so much fun!

It helped that it was a big rivalry game against American Fork and we totally smoked them!

 Scott's little brother is on the team so it was great to go support him  (and of course our alma mater)

After the game they were handing out "football cards" for the seniors so we went down on the field to get their autographs and say hi to the team.  It was so funny to see all the players acting all cool, signing autographs and playing the tough guys.  All in all, it was a great Friday night!!

Awkward and Awesome!

Shirt: Alpine Spinal Rehab  Pants: Gap  Shoes: Forever Young (Soda brand)

Awkward

-Driving around the BYU parking lot for 20 minutes and running into the same cars also looking for parking spots, and subsequently trying to get one before them
-Driving behind a trailer with no brake lights/blinkers and me not having depth perception.....almost hitched right up on that thing
-Living at home with the parental units after the baby has moved out to college...anyone have an apartment for rent?!
-Going on a date with a guy, then a week later having his dad tell me he's possibly getting married in December...maybe I shouldn't date the bosses son?
-Listening to a co-worker call a "Licensed Massage Therapist" a "Masseuse"....glad I wasn't the one making that mistake, I don't want any favors of that kind!
-Being 15 minutes late to class on the first day of class, forgetting my textbooks the second day and completely missing class the third day...welcome to my 5th year of college!
-Taking pictures of myself in the mirror....if my parentals saw that I'd be ridiculed for the rest of my life (and yes that's the exercise room, and yes the mirror was dirty)

Awesome
-Looking all official in my new marketing polo for work! Now people might actually believe I'm not just some kid handing out fliers
-Going on a hike and being worried about dying in the rain and having the rain be the least threatening thing you run into-take that Mamma Moose, wandering fire and big scary animal trying to sneak up behind me in the dark! (I guess this could go either way...it's more awesome that I survived such an episode)
-20 minute shopping spree to Target at 8:30 am and walking out feeling FABULOUS all day long (more on that later)
-Absolutely loving my job, every single day and rocking the marketing stats!

In Session

Yep, you guessed it, back to school for little ol' me.  For some reason this summer blew by entirely too fast!  I always think school comes too soon but this summer felt like it never really started until about 2 weeks ago and now it's time to buckle down and study.  Which is hard when it's so sunny outside!
So the first day of school...most people (or at least girls) think about what they're going to wear, make sure they have all their supplies, make sure their hair is perfect and walk into class with style and grace....Let me tell you how my first day of school went:
Have to find a new route to make the drive from Alpine to Provo because not only is there construction and literally every road I could take, but now there are multiple school zones!  Add in an 8am class and now I get general "work traffic" too.  So I get up, a little later than planned, so luckily it was a not-washing-my-hair-day and I could just spray in a little dry shampoo and head out the door.  Not my favorite kind of day, but we make do.  Don't worry, because although I accounted for the requisite work traffic, I failed to correctly estimate the "I'm late for class and BYU has the worst parking ever" traffic.  Cut to me circling the parking lot with 12 other people waiting for some type of sports class to get out so we can steal their parking spots.
Remember that glamorous girl who's got everything together walking into class on the first day of school? Yeah, that wasn't me.  I was the 15 minutes late, ran up the huge staircase in high heels and now have to sit directly in front of the professor and doesn't have a clue what's going on girl.  Luckily because I was 15 minutes late, I only had to sit there for half an hour!
Upon exiting the building and walking back down the stairs, with a much calmer demeanor I might add, I saw what could only be described as the 8 am traffic on crack.  One of the million drones circling the parking lot was desperate enough to offer me a ride to my car so that he could have the coveted stall.  So I jumped in a random strangers truck, rode the 3 rows to my car and gladly left the mess behind. You'd never guess this was my 5th year in college now would ya?

All in all, I nailed the first day of school

Have you ever had a moment where you thought to yourself, "wow-this feels exactly what movies look like!"  ?? Maybe it's just me, but I've had a couple of these moments and today was a great one!  I had an e.x.t.r.e.m.e.l.y long day at work (try 9-8) and as I was driving home I hit the perfect combination.  I had the top down on the convertible, my hair blowing ever so slightly,  it was dusk-still light and warm, but definitely the winding down moments of the day, and Fantasia's "Even Angels" started playing on the iPod.  For some reason this moment to me, heading home from a long day of work, still dressed up in my white button down shirt and black slacks felt something akin to J. Lo in the Wedding Planner.  Y'know that moment when she goes home to an empty house, vacuums, makes dinner, all that great stuff.  My life's not picture perfect, but sometimes I get a glimpse of greatness!


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Oh boy, Oh boy, Oh boy

Can I just tell you that the last 5 days have been a complete and utter disaster?!  I seriously have NO idea what is out to get me, but I wish it would go away.  I dropped my laptop, my nail polish shattered, black paint on white carpet, a dead car....I don't know when it will end, but I sincerely hope it's soon!  A major aspect of my scatter-brained "ness" is probably the fact that my ex-husband is getting married again.  I try not to get too specific in regards to this area of my life, I am completely open to questions, but I try not to force it on people because some are extremely uncomfortable with my circumstances.  I'm finding out it's quite the process now that he's moving on in terms of his relationship and that there is actually participation required from me.  Basically, I feel like I'm in some cloud or weird funk.  I don't quite know how to deal with this situation.  I wish him every happiness in the world and I hope everything works out this time around.  I just don't quite know how this moment fits into my life.  It's almost like going through the entire divorce again.  There are so many things going through my head right now.  I'm tired, I'm frustrated, I feel awkward, I'm actually glad its happening now instead of years down the road, I'm happy for him, I'm confused, I'm so ready to just have it over and down with.  It makes me a little nervous about things to come and the whole process that we're now starting. I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to run until I can't anymore, I want to not think about it.

  I can't get it out of my head and all I want to do is move on