Dr. Ester Buchholz
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
I'm one of those people that cannot turn off my brain. I'm constantly thinking of blog posts (which generally never get published), books to read, new projects to try, decorating schemes, sometimes just a word. A lot of that thinking stresses me out though; I think of conversations I had with people and what I should have said instead, I think of conversations I will have with people, and how they can go terribly awry. I think of how to take care of everything when I can't always take care of myself. As yesterday was "tax day" I think my stress level will decrease, in addition to the decrease it has taken after finals were finally over! Now I find myself craving peace and quiet. Time to just be alone with my thoughts and let them do their thing. I've always been a kind of "loner" for lack of a better word. I love people and I love hanging out, being with friends, having adventures, I love it all and would not trade it for anything. But I have to have my alone time. My time to do whatever I want, whether it's read, blog surf, craft, sew, write or just be. My parents are out of town this week and it's the ideal time for me to do my own thing. I've locked all the doors and just want to be.