Just a Thought

Today as I walked across campus on my way to my car I realized something: I like to be alone.  I've always known it, and I do just fine on my own, I've learned how to be independent and I'm proud of it.   Sometimes though, I think I really do like my alone time a little too much.  People are difficult and messy and sticky and never quite understands things in the same way you do.  I love people, I really do.  I love watching people, I love hearing other people's opinions, I like knowing the differences and getting new perspectives.  I wouldn't trade people for the world.  But sometimes you  just need a moment to not be perfect.  To fall apart, to let things just be, to not worry about who sees or the proper way to act.  People are work.  And some days its just not worth the effort.  So tonight, I'll sit and fold my laundy

Boutique Time!!

I know it's not Christmas yet, heck it's not even Halloween, but guess what?!  It's an ever growing trend to shop for Christmas before its actually here!!  Surprise, surprise right?  I'm the kind of person that thinks about what to get people all year long, but then doesn't actually do shopping until December....probably not the best idea.  SOOO, this will help all of you trying to get a jump on your Christmas shopping!

I've participated in this boutique for the last 3 years and I have so much fun every time!  It's going on this weekend, starting tomorrow (which is of course Thursday, and not quite the weekend) in Draper.  There are a lot of different items for sale, some Christmas-y some not, but all exciting!  Come check it out!

if you can't make it to the boutique check out my shop topsy.bigcartel.com  lots of stuff on there already and lots of new things coming for the holidays!

Fridays in the Fall

Nothing makes it feel more like fall than football games!  It really is the best part of going back to school and the changing of the seasons.  I went on a date last night to my hometown high school's homecoming game and it was so much fun!

It helped that it was a big rivalry game against American Fork and we totally smoked them!

 Scott's little brother is on the team so it was great to go support him  (and of course our alma mater)

After the game they were handing out "football cards" for the seniors so we went down on the field to get their autographs and say hi to the team.  It was so funny to see all the players acting all cool, signing autographs and playing the tough guys.  All in all, it was a great Friday night!!

Awkward and Awesome!

Shirt: Alpine Spinal Rehab  Pants: Gap  Shoes: Forever Young (Soda brand)

Awkward

-Driving around the BYU parking lot for 20 minutes and running into the same cars also looking for parking spots, and subsequently trying to get one before them
-Driving behind a trailer with no brake lights/blinkers and me not having depth perception.....almost hitched right up on that thing
-Living at home with the parental units after the baby has moved out to college...anyone have an apartment for rent?!
-Going on a date with a guy, then a week later having his dad tell me he's possibly getting married in December...maybe I shouldn't date the bosses son?
-Listening to a co-worker call a "Licensed Massage Therapist" a "Masseuse"....glad I wasn't the one making that mistake, I don't want any favors of that kind!
-Being 15 minutes late to class on the first day of class, forgetting my textbooks the second day and completely missing class the third day...welcome to my 5th year of college!
-Taking pictures of myself in the mirror....if my parentals saw that I'd be ridiculed for the rest of my life (and yes that's the exercise room, and yes the mirror was dirty)

Awesome
-Looking all official in my new marketing polo for work! Now people might actually believe I'm not just some kid handing out fliers
-Going on a hike and being worried about dying in the rain and having the rain be the least threatening thing you run into-take that Mamma Moose, wandering fire and big scary animal trying to sneak up behind me in the dark! (I guess this could go either way...it's more awesome that I survived such an episode)
-20 minute shopping spree to Target at 8:30 am and walking out feeling FABULOUS all day long (more on that later)
-Absolutely loving my job, every single day and rocking the marketing stats!

In Session

Yep, you guessed it, back to school for little ol' me.  For some reason this summer blew by entirely too fast!  I always think school comes too soon but this summer felt like it never really started until about 2 weeks ago and now it's time to buckle down and study.  Which is hard when it's so sunny outside!
So the first day of school...most people (or at least girls) think about what they're going to wear, make sure they have all their supplies, make sure their hair is perfect and walk into class with style and grace....Let me tell you how my first day of school went:
Have to find a new route to make the drive from Alpine to Provo because not only is there construction and literally every road I could take, but now there are multiple school zones!  Add in an 8am class and now I get general "work traffic" too.  So I get up, a little later than planned, so luckily it was a not-washing-my-hair-day and I could just spray in a little dry shampoo and head out the door.  Not my favorite kind of day, but we make do.  Don't worry, because although I accounted for the requisite work traffic, I failed to correctly estimate the "I'm late for class and BYU has the worst parking ever" traffic.  Cut to me circling the parking lot with 12 other people waiting for some type of sports class to get out so we can steal their parking spots.
Remember that glamorous girl who's got everything together walking into class on the first day of school? Yeah, that wasn't me.  I was the 15 minutes late, ran up the huge staircase in high heels and now have to sit directly in front of the professor and doesn't have a clue what's going on girl.  Luckily because I was 15 minutes late, I only had to sit there for half an hour!
Upon exiting the building and walking back down the stairs, with a much calmer demeanor I might add, I saw what could only be described as the 8 am traffic on crack.  One of the million drones circling the parking lot was desperate enough to offer me a ride to my car so that he could have the coveted stall.  So I jumped in a random strangers truck, rode the 3 rows to my car and gladly left the mess behind. You'd never guess this was my 5th year in college now would ya?

All in all, I nailed the first day of school

Have you ever had a moment where you thought to yourself, "wow-this feels exactly what movies look like!"  ?? Maybe it's just me, but I've had a couple of these moments and today was a great one!  I had an e.x.t.r.e.m.e.l.y long day at work (try 9-8) and as I was driving home I hit the perfect combination.  I had the top down on the convertible, my hair blowing ever so slightly,  it was dusk-still light and warm, but definitely the winding down moments of the day, and Fantasia's "Even Angels" started playing on the iPod.  For some reason this moment to me, heading home from a long day of work, still dressed up in my white button down shirt and black slacks felt something akin to J. Lo in the Wedding Planner.  Y'know that moment when she goes home to an empty house, vacuums, makes dinner, all that great stuff.  My life's not picture perfect, but sometimes I get a glimpse of greatness!


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Oh boy, Oh boy, Oh boy

Can I just tell you that the last 5 days have been a complete and utter disaster?!  I seriously have NO idea what is out to get me, but I wish it would go away.  I dropped my laptop, my nail polish shattered, black paint on white carpet, a dead car....I don't know when it will end, but I sincerely hope it's soon!  A major aspect of my scatter-brained "ness" is probably the fact that my ex-husband is getting married again.  I try not to get too specific in regards to this area of my life, I am completely open to questions, but I try not to force it on people because some are extremely uncomfortable with my circumstances.  I'm finding out it's quite the process now that he's moving on in terms of his relationship and that there is actually participation required from me.  Basically, I feel like I'm in some cloud or weird funk.  I don't quite know how to deal with this situation.  I wish him every happiness in the world and I hope everything works out this time around.  I just don't quite know how this moment fits into my life.  It's almost like going through the entire divorce again.  There are so many things going through my head right now.  I'm tired, I'm frustrated, I feel awkward, I'm actually glad its happening now instead of years down the road, I'm happy for him, I'm confused, I'm so ready to just have it over and down with.  It makes me a little nervous about things to come and the whole process that we're now starting. I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to run until I can't anymore, I want to not think about it.

  I can't get it out of my head and all I want to do is move on

Work Work Work

Forgive me for my slacking on the whole blogging thing....it started out that I was unemployed and had nothing exciting going on, now I have a NEW JOB and am too busy to blog about anything!!  So here's a quick rundown of what I've been up to the last week.  I started a new job on Monday as a Marketing Assistant at Alpine Spinal Rehab.  It's a complete change from everything I've done and so far I LOVE it! I get to go out and meet with people in several different professions and tell them a little about what we do.  What I'm loving the most is that I get to move around, I deliver gift baskets and other stuff like that and I'm not stuck behind a desk on my fanny all day!  In fact, I do not even have a desk!  I'm going on my first marketing call by myself and I'm a little nervous, but I'm super excited about it.
In addition to that crazy....I was put in charge of organizing the Alpine Days booths!  It was kind of dumped in my lap and I'm learning/making it up as I go.  It's not something I was prepared for, but I think I'm hanging in there for now!  If you don't hear from me, I'm either in marketing meetings or mapping out booths!!
Aaaaand, I was just called to teach relief society...this week has been totally out of my comfort zone!  I always thought of myself as the one that was on the fringes, watching and observing, I'm not an attention person and my face turns red immediately if there's a lot of attention focused on me.  I don't know what I'm supposed to be learning from all this, but I guess I'll learn to juggle at least!  I can definitely tell that I'm learning and growing and stretching who I am.  I hope I survive because I'm enjoying being busy again and having something to do!!

Babysitting

One of the benefits of being unemployed has been the time I've been able to spend doing things I actually want to do and being with my family.  For the last 3 summers I worked full time and I always felt like I was missing out on so much.  This summer however I've had more chance to play and to help out, so while my Sister-in-Law Nancy was at work, I got to hang out with her kids and it was so entertaining!  They're pretty self-sufficient, as Kale is 12 and Tavyn is now 9.  Coming up with things that both of them would like to do was a little difficult at first but we figured it out pretty quick.  One day I took 8 kids down to Snoasis and boy did we create a long line!  I didn't get a chance to snap a picture, but sometimes I think that's a sign of just how much fun you're actually having.  Another day we grabbed some friends and went down to the park so the girls could swing and the boys could play soccer.  The girls had to get "beautified" before we went though because as Eleanore said, "We might meet some boys at the park."  Then we got in my car, put the top down and cruised.  After I did both girls hair and drove them to the park Eleanore offered to do my hair, in case I met any boys, and then told me my car would definitely get all the boys to like me!  Who knew I needed dating help from 9 year olds!?

On another day with the kids we made tie dye shirts using fabric paint from Hobby Lobby (which is waaay better than traditional tie dying because you don't have to pre-treat the shirts, it's not nearly as messy and it cleans up in a minute) went to the park to play soccer again and then swam.

    Check out this awesome video of our friend Jonas and his amazing soccer skills...

https://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=10150360173873032

I also babysat 3 of my sister's kids, and they were so crazy!  A lot of fun, but the frequency in which they consume Macaroni 'n Cheese is slightly alarming!

Rebuilding

A year ago I didn't know what the future held.  I was terrified of life, of seeing people I knew, of having to tell people what happened, of questions I didn't have an answer to.  Looking back, I don't know where the strength to do it came from.  My life isn't perfect now.  It's still a mess, every single day.  I don't know what life holds and I don't really know where I'm headed.  Some days are still a struggle.  But life is better, and that's the feeling I'm going to follow

Running for a Reason

I've never been much of a runner.  Sure I do the occasional run just to keep almost in shape, but I've never been committed to it.  I recently found a reason to get out of bed early enough to get a run in in the beautiful mountain air. Why am I missing precious sleep time when I have no reason to be out of bed before 9 am?   The Teach the Children Annual 5k fun run.  We all know I'm a bit of a sucker for good causes (enter the 3 pair of TOMS I wear constantly, the Falling Whistle I wear every single day, and my ambition to learn sign language so I can return to Ghana with Signs of Hope International)  I don't believe I'm a goody two shoes by any means, but I love all of these organizations and am trying to my part to help where I can.  The 5k is July 9th in Murray at 7am.  If any of you would like to join me fill out a registration form and let's get running! 

Land of Windmills and Wooden Shoes

A couple weeks ago I went to visit my best friend/sister Gentry and her husband Chris in Amsterdam.  I'd been looking forward to this trip since they moved last September.  It came at a perfect moment too.  I'd been saving and saving to go and just before I left, I lost my job.  I know it doesn't sound like an ideal time to lose my employment, but I'd been saving so intensely for this trip that I actually over-saved and have some money left over!  It was a great stress reliever after a strenuous 4 months.  Needless to say, once I got there and got to hang out with these two I didn't want to ever come home!  I got to go with Gent to her ultra-sound, which was exciting because I won't be able to see her baby until 2 months AFTER she's born!  So the little image that was barely discernible as a baby at times, will have to hold me over.  They tried to keep me awake after the 8 hour time change so we went down and wandered through Amsterdam and went to dinner at the Hard Rock Cafe. Chris and Gent took me to Madurodam, the miniature of Amsterdam,  Gent and I went on a bus tour to Volendam and Marken, toured through a cheese factory and a wooden shoe factory, saw windmills across the countryside, went to the Anne Frank museum, (which literally made me cry, it was incredible), went shopping, walked through a nunnery, went to the bookstore, walked around the city, went to lunch and just hung out together.  It was just like before we lived in different countries!  I've missed her so incredibly much, and it was so hard to come home, but I loved being able to spend time with her (and Chris) again.





It was so fun to visit and I miss it already.  The country was beautiful and there are museums on every corner! I never really planned on visiting The Netherlands (although it probably should have been a priority since it's my heritage) but I am so glad I did.  The buildings are beautiful, the trains are super easy to navigate, the canals are amazing.  It was such a wonderful trip!  Thanks Gent and Chris!

Uh Oh

Monday nights are baaaack!!  Sayer and I are back to making sure the tivo is working properly and not answering the phone after 7pm so don't bother calling....but if you'd like to join the fun, come on over!

I do have to say though that this might not be as good as I thought originally.  I didn't mind Ashley on the Bachelor until the home town date episode, then she started getting on my nerves: too giggly, came off as fake and a little immature.  Just from the premier, she's still acting that way and hasn't grown up, so while it will definitely be entertaining, I'm not sure it will be good.

Topsy Turvy!

As some of you may know, I started a small shop selling hair products about a year ago.  I haven't done very many events and I am just getting my online story set up, but it's been such an adventure!  As I recently found myself unemployed (story to follow)  I decided it was time to focus again on what I love!  Also, since I have no source of income, why not go back to selling my products, right?  Check me out at http://topsy.bigcartel.com/ and see if there's anything you like!  Also, as it is a new site I'm still working out the bugs, so here are some pictures of the products I have available.  If you are interested e-mail me at topsysturvy@gmail.com and I can get your items to you!

The Addison



The Stella


The Zainy

Just Thinkin'

I'm one of those people that cannot turn off my brain.  I'm constantly thinking of blog posts (which generally never get published), books to read, new projects to try, decorating schemes, sometimes just a word.  A lot of that thinking stresses me out though; I think of conversations I had with people and what I should have said instead, I think of conversations I will have with people, and how they can go terribly awry.  I think of how to take care of everything when I can't always take care of myself.  As yesterday was "tax day" I think my stress level will decrease, in addition to the decrease it has taken after finals were finally over!  Now I find myself craving peace and quiet.  Time to just be alone with my thoughts and let them do their thing.  I've always been a kind of "loner" for lack of a better word.  I love people and I love hanging out, being with friends, having adventures, I love it all and would not trade it for anything.  But I have to have my alone time.  My time to do whatever I want, whether it's read, blog surf, craft, sew, write or just be.  My parents are out of town this week and it's the ideal time for me to do my own thing.  I've locked all the doors and just want to be. 

"...we need quiet time to figure things out, to emerge with new discoveries, to unearth original answers"

 Dr. Ester Buchholz

Hugs not Drugs

A hug delights and warms and charms,
that must be why God gave us arms.
~Author Unknown



Not that I was actually considering the alternative, but a hug sounds amazing right now.  Have you ever had those days when you wake up with a headache and you just know the rest of the day is gonna be the same?  I’ve had those 3 days in a row now.  My mom got home from San Francisco last week and while we were waiting up for Sayer to get home she just hugged me.  I’m not much of a touchy person, but that hug was great.  I’d had a lot of fun with my dad over the weekend, but there’s something about a mom.  She’s going out of town again, but I really need a hug.  I especially love the feeling of a hug from somebody who has been gone. 

            There are several different types of huggers out there too.  Some pat your back, some rub your back, some just fully embrace you and take your worries away.  Hugs are something special

Flowing with the Go

I'm sitting at work, eating the lunch my dad made me and wishing the next half hour would be over already so I can leave.  It's the end of tax season and everyone is flipping out.   Everyone is prettty ornery these days and I am so ready for them to go back to the kind people I knew before.  But until then, I'm just the sponge obsorbing all of their anger and frustration and trying to ease as much of that as I can.  Only problem is, I have my own frustrations that I can't let out to anyone and have them take care of it.  Which is fine, cuz I'm not chill enough to let other people handle my problems.  I used to think I was a fairly easy going person, not too uptight (unless school was involved) and didn't worry about things or plan anything out.  I just showed up and went for it.  Man how I miss that girl!  Sayer was doing an assignment for her online class and had to interview people about how they handle stress and when they start to feel stressed.  If it was a test I would have failed!  I am horrible at handling stress.  I'm a list person.  I can have 3 lists of the same thing and it doesn't matter, I'll write another one.  When I get stressed, this intensifies, I have lists about my lists.  I have my planner with me always, then I write down a list of tasks I need to do for the month day-by-day on a separate piece of paper, and then I have my shopping lists or my "if I get a chance" list.  Lately I feel like I just need to break out and do something purely crazy, just to do it.  While eating the song "What the Hell" by Avril Lavigne came on.  As weird as it sounds, I can identify with that right now.  Not in the same context, but seriously, what the, why not just go for it?! I don't know if my brand of crazy stems from when I was married and I had to be the responsible one or nothing would get done at all and it's just escalated in the last couple months, or if it's just been laying in wait under the surface my whole life?  Am I totally crazy, or are any of you crazy list people too?

One Day Without Shoes

Today is the "One Day Without Shoes" awareness day sponsored by Toms.  I am a HUGE Toms fan if you didn't already know that.  Toms is a movement geared at providing shoes for kids in developing countries.  For every pair of shoes that Toms sells, they give a pair to a child in need.  I love that people are out doing what they can to make the world better, to support fellow men and just be kind.  If you haven't heard of Toms you definitely need to check out their website http://www.toms.com/ It's really incredible.  I can't imagine not owning a pair of shoes.  Especially because, let's be honest, girls tend to own more than 5 pairs of shoes on average.  As I write this I am sitting on BYU campus waiting for class to start, without shoes.  I know, it sounds gross and I am ready to wash my feet, but because of this one thing, I can raise awareness about kids who have less than I do.  I get funny looks from people, but it's so worth it because I then have the chance to spread the word about this amazing movement.  If you missed out on today, you can still help raise awareness.  Buy a pair of Toms, get more informed yourself, help raise awareness in your community.  It's all worth it.

Re-purposing

I am always amazed at how people re-purpose things, and I wish I had their talent and inspiration!  The Dainty Squid is hosting a giveaway from Mungocrafts and I so want one of their sweatshirts!  I am in love with the quirky style and really hope I win! Go check out their stuff, you'll fall in love too!

Blind Dating

So what exactly are the merits of blind dating?  I know this girl would say blind dates are awesome, but so far, I haven't found that.  I'm not suggsting they haven't been fun, they certainly have been.  And I will definitely continue to go on them.  I just wonder if they are all they're cracked up to be.  I certainly haven't any horror stories like all the rest of the people I've talked to and I am grateful for that!  So...in another attempt to discover the merits of blind dating I am going on one tomorrow.  I'm actually really excited about this one!  I'm not really sure why this one in particular has got me wanting it to be Friday already, but we'll just go with it and see how it goes!! 

Hopefully not like this...

Astounded

As I sat in the JFSB today working on my ridiculous paper I have to present on Friday I couldn't help but observe the people around me.  I am a big fan of people watching and could seriously spend hours doing it, but today I was shocked by several of these people's behavior.  I sat in the 2nd floor atrium near the elevators for about 3 hours.  In all that time I saw about 15 people take the elevator down to the 1st floor!  There is a perfectly good staircase right by the elevators (It's even fun to walk down because it's circular!) but no, groups of people stood and waited longer than it would have taken them to walk DOWN the stairs, for the elevator.  Am I crazy or is this the epitome of lazy!? It wasn't even UP, it was down, one, singular flight of stairs!!

Converted

I have a confession to make.  I am a country dancing convert.  I'm not ashamed of this fact, and although I'm still new to this whole new world, I'm in love with it!  "Rootbeer boy" asked if I wanted to go last week and being the spontaneous person that I am, I agreed! (ha!)  It was a great motivation to get my homework done super quick so I could go play, it was like being in elementary school again, reading faster than comprehension so I could see my friends!  For the most part I did pretty well, if I do say so myself.  It's intimidating to go with a group of people that have been going for ages and you're the fresh meat, but they were all so good to take it slow and teach me how.  I was thinking it would all be line dances and I'd feel completely out of place, but it's totally not like that!  There are the basic steps but after that, you just follow the guy.  And let me tell you, there is nothing more attractive than a guy that can dance, and dance well.  I love that it's actual dancing and not just the jr. high version of swaying.  I met some new friends, and only got dropped on my head once!  I went again this week and am falling more in love with it!  This week the casualties were a little worse however. Instead of just getting dropped, I got elbowed in the face!  Super hard.  My chin is bruised....but at least it's not broken! I seriously think country dancing is the most fun I have had in a very long time! 

Looks like I'll be pulling these out more often!!

Brad Pitt Syndrome

Have you ever noticed that Brad Pitt in Ocean's 11 seems to ALWAYS be eating? Watch it again, you'll see it. I'm not sure if the directors planned that, if he was particularly hungry all the time or if it just happened, but it's there.

While it's funny in the movie and provides great entertainment to the masses, it's not a good feeling when its you.  This is my Brad Pitt Syndrome: I'm always eating.  I feel like the fat kid in the back of the class with my backpack full of snacks!  I'm on a constant eating schedule due to a digestive tract issue...I need my gallbladder removed. Nothing too exciting, nothing majorly harmful...just extremely annoying!  I'm eating at least once an hour and every time I pull out my snacks I think of Brad Pitt.  At least he's easy on the eyes!

**The real issue with all of this, is that certain foods make me sick at different times.  I can eat a peanut butter sandwich one day and be fine; eat the same thing 3 days later and it'll make me sick-I can't figure it out!  I have completely sworn off Chinese food, however. That makes me sick all the time.  Also Macaroni 'n Cheese and tacos...its an ever-growing list!

Barnyard

This is home 

There is little to say on the subject of love that doesn't sound like the prayer of the desperate.

                      Romania Brown

Happy Valentine's Day

exhaustion

First of all...exhaustion is a funny lookin' word.
Oh hey there!  No I haven't forgotten you, I'm just exhausted!! I know many people out there are exhausted and running around crazy and have all their own problems, but man, life is crazy.  I started a new job at the beginning of January and it stresses me out.  As in I'm so stressed that all I want to do is sleep.  I'm the office manager of an accounting firm and when I was offered the job I was told that I'd be answering phones, filing some papers and greeting customers.  That's it, the job description they hired me with.  Let's just say that that was kind of a major understatement!! (yes I can say it like that because I'm an English major!)  Instead, I make about 100 phone calls a day, organize the files, order office supplies, handle all incoming calls, greet customers, try to explain to customers that I am not actually an accountant, send constant e-mails, look up customer information, and I'm currently trying to mainstream all of their files...or at least make it so all the files for customer at least have the same name on them
 They also told me i would start work at 8am, which I found out is a total lie.  In order to get the things done I need to, I should be there  by about 7:30 in the morning, if not earlier, depending on how late they stayed the night before...maybe it's not that big of a deal, but I am soooo not a morning person.  And I was told 8!  It's a really good job for sure, I think once I get the hang of everything it'll be fine, but for now, I'm stressed out of my guts.
Gentry and I were talking and we decided that the stress and exhaustion that I'm now experiencing is due to the fact that I now have a real job.  I have to take things home, I have to be there until the tasks are finished, not just the hours, I have actual responsibility to keep everything running.  Let me tell you, that is a lot of responsibility for someone who used to get paid to do homework!
That's another issue-I can't do homework at work anymore.  I used to because at my last job there was a lot of down time, but I barely have a minute to run to the bathroom during the day.  (luckily i have amazing bladder control!)
 So now you know, if I go MIA, I'm just sleeping.  I'd still love to talk to you!

Pretty Boy Swag

I'm being played.  Hard.

(the video is a little weird, but the lyrics are TOTALLY true)

  And he doesn't know I know...

So this is how I feel

Happy Birthday!

Today is Elvis Presley's 76th birthday!  And it's no secret that I'm irreversibly in love with the man!  His birthday is on my calendar every single year, but no I don't do any kind of celebration or anything for him.  One year in high school Wal*Mart sold banana reeses peanut butter cups though and it was amazing!! I stocked  up, put them in the freezer and Martha and I ate them for a month I swear.  It was the best thing anyone could have given me for Elvis' birthday!   An Elvis impersonator even kissed me when I was 17!  Not quite as cool as it would have been if he was the real Elvis, but I'll never forget it!  I even still have the scarf he gave me, it hangs in my bedroom and I love it!  So I did a quick sweep around my room and realized just how much Elvis memorabilia I have and it's a little insane!

My Elvis Bags 

I have some pretty random stuff like these Elvis note cards 

These are my Elvis movies, some of them are double or quadruple features, so I have quite a few!

Paula bought me this picture on choir tour our junior year of high school!  Now it sits in my window sill and I get to look at it everyday!

Elvis Impersonator....see, he gave me his purple scarf!

Overwhelmed

I hate the beginning of school. Especially the first day when the teacher hands you the syllabus and says, Look at everything you have to get done in the next 4 months! It totally sends me over the edge. I think that's why I have a slight breakdown at the beginning of every semester and desperately want to change my major. Let's just say that 4 years into college, this is probably not the situation I should be in. It drives me bonkers! So I spent a couple hours today looking at what I need to do to graduate (as fast as possible) what I would need to graduate in something other than English (a possibility that has never actually taken hold in my brain) and considering what in the world I'm going to do next. After hours spent in frustration trying to plan the rest of my life (i have to plan, it's a compulsion) I have figured out a *tentative* plan:

Continue in the English Major

Add an Editing Minor

Graduate in 2 years

Get into an Interior Design Program

This is where things get a little fuzzy. I looked at LDS Business College and the Art Institute of Utah and I don't know exactly where things will go. The Art Institute is going to send me some more information and if I can actually get started on the design program while doing my English Degree (and working) so much the better. Needless to say....this is 10000X more overwhelming than that stinking syllabus they give us at the beginning of the semester, but I will get it all done....one day at a time. Wish me luck!